Writer, Historian, and Outspoken Advocate
The Middle of the Story
Hands Off Rally, Durango CO, 2025
by Vivian Smotherman


















Attribution Notice
This speech was written and delivered by Vivian Smotherman on April 5, 2025, at the Hands-Off Rally in Durango, Colorado. It may be redistributed or quoted in full or in part, provided that proper credit is given to the author, Vivian Smotherman.
I’m not here to whisper.
And I’m not here to make you comfortable.
I’m here because I’ve seen this story before.
And I know how it ends—unless we change it.
We are not at the beginning of fascism.
We are in the middle.
The books have already been banned.
The teachers have already been fired.
The laws are already rewritten.
The fear is already normalized.
This is not leadership. It’s punishment.
And it’s not chaos. It’s learning theory.
This is behavioral conditioning—deliberate and strategic.
Make resistance painful.
Make obedience just slightly less painful.
And eventually, people bend.
The institutions have already bent.
Our Principles have already bent.
Their truth is broken.
When truth breaks, people disappear.
You don’t need soldiers in the street to have fascism.
You just need silence.
You just need compliance.
You just need enough people to think it’s not their problem.
But I’ve stood where silence leads.
Not so long ago, I stood on the hallowed ground of Auschwitz-Birkenau.
On the rubble of those accursed furnaces.
And I felt the weight of a million voices.
Ghosts.
I heard them asking me:
“What gives you the right?
Why do you get to walk out of this place, when we never could?”
And that question has followed me.
Haunted me.
Shaped everything I’ve done since.
I owe them an answer.
And today, I offer it.
I walked out because I had work to do.
I walked out because someone had to preserve truth.
I walked out because someone had to light the flare before we had fallen too far.
If you think it can’t happen here—you’re already too late.
This is not the beginning of fascism.
This is the middle.
And the ending depends on us.
I’ve said it before, I’m a planner, a doer, and a fighter. I’m not here to whine about injustice, I’m not here to talk about resistance, I’m here to prepare for survival. For we must remain whole, if we’re going to overcome.
Today we march,
Tomorrow we adapt.
We resist.
We become dangerous in ways they can’t track.
And if we want to stop this descent—if we want to survive it—we cannot just resist.
We have to adapt. We have to subvert. We have to outmaneuver.
When they ban books,
we build libraries in our basements.
We teach banned history by candlelight if we have to.
When they surveil us,
we go dark.
We speak in playlists and memes, in QR codes and fliers.
We drown their propaganda in history and facts.
When they weaponize eggs and the economy,
we become the wrench in the machine.
We leak. We delay. We reroute.
We build mutual-aid markets they can’t monitor or tax.
When they erase our identities,
we flood the system with too many to track.
We change names, shift pronouns, rewrite the rules.
We become ungovernable by refusing to vanish.
When they strip DEI from our schools,
we embed those values deeper than policy.
We become walking curriculum.
We organize behind closed doors, and raise resistance in every bar, every bookstore, every back room.
When they make it illegal to protest,
we jam their culture.
We mock them.
We remix their slogans until they mean nothing.
We use stickers, murals, poems, and noise.
And when they abandon us?
We come together like family.
We coordinate shelter and supplies through encrypted channels.
We create ride networks, safe zones, backyard clinics, and food circles.
Because this isn’t just resistance. It’s a reckoning.
Sometimes, the most radical thing you can do is survive out loud.
This is how we win.
Not just with protests.
With presence.
With community.
With courage made ordinary.
With the quiet thunder of people who refuse to disappear
This isn’t about slogans.
This isn’t about hashtags.
If they fear our truth—good.
Let them fear it.
Because we are still here.
Because we are louder than their noise.
Because we have ghosts behind us and generations ahead of us.
And I intend to be worthy of both.

A Transgender Prayer
by Vivian Smotherman
This work by Vivian Smotherman is licensed for sharing and non-commercial use—with attribution—only in ways that uplift, support, or advocate for transgender people. Misuse, misrepresentation, or appropriation for discriminatory or harmful purposes is not permitted.
I was born into a riddle without answer.
I was not groomed but gifted. Not trained but tested
I was born with a flaw in my flesh—
a quiet misalignment,
a body, out of phase with my soul.
My mirror always lied.
Family photos captured a stranger where I should
have been.
My childhood a monastic chant of silent begging:
“Please, make me normal.”
“Please, make it stop.”
“Please, fix me!”
Prayers eternally unanswered.
You ask so much of me.
And I have given.
Given You my beatings, my bruises, my blood, and
my shame—
Through it all, I have begged You with tears, cursed
You with rage.
And waited through endless silence for revelation.
In Your ineffable grace, You chose me.
Forced me to be stronger, smarter, more enduring.
You placed this weight upon my shoulders—
a burden, wrapped in a curse.
So, I will not complain.
I will not surrender.
I will not vanish to make others comfortable.
You set me between two worlds.
So I will walk in two worlds,
speak in two tongues,
and bridge the gap in understanding.
I will rescue the truths others tried to burn.
I will be a beacon for those lost in the fog.
My actions will be bold, my voice loud, my
example worthy of respect.
If this is the trial You set before me,
let it be my crucible.
I will not just survive.
I will thrive.
I will carve space.
I will resurrect legacy and live loud enough to echo
across time.
And when I stand before You,
in whatever world comes next,
I will not ask why You made me this way.
I only ask…